RANSVESTIA

me to do was wear a bra to work (I wouldn't anyway). Since that time, I have worn under my male clothes any feminine item that could not be detected by co-workers, with her full knowledge and approval.

Our love life, which had always been good, got better. The next six months were the most fantastic part of my life. Today I don't feel dressed unless I'm wearing panties and stockings under my everyday male clothing. She began surprising me with gifts of frilly undies. What amazed me the most was her comment one day that she would like to see how I looked dressed completely as a woman! My eyes must have popped out of my head, and the next day she came home with a wig and high heels in my size. I thought the wig was gorgeous, and it is now my favorite feminine item.

She soon had me completely dressed as a woman, including make- up. She thought I looked beautiful. I doubt, however, that I would ever get up enough courage to go in public this way since there are so many female mannerisms to conquer, plus the voice problem. There have been four occasions, however, when the kids were gone all day that I was able to lounge around the house all dressed up or in a peignoir outfit. My wife encouraged this because she saw how happy it made me.

There is a very tragic part to my story. Not six months after all this openness began, we discovered my wife was seriously ill with an incurable form of cancer. The doctors gave her two years but compli- cations set in and she was dead four months later. Her death was a crushing blow. Now I'm trying to figure out how I want to spend the rest of my life. There are certain advantages to being single if one is a TV, but I need someone to share my life with. The problem is finding an understanding woman that would have the same open mind as my wife possessed. I am certain of one thing-she would have to know of my needs before marriage. No more secrets.

That's a brief history of my TV life. I don't know why I am so inclined, but I enjoy every minute of it and consider TVism as absolutely essential to my life.

I have begun to read extensively the pertinent literature. The most pleasant surprise was finding out that there may be a million or more men in this country with similar habits, although I have yet to meet